13 months ago today, I moved from New York to California to pursue an amazing opportunity at a tech startup in Silicon Valley. I said farewell to 9 years of my adulthood, uprooted my tiny little life and made the trek to the left coast. It was a risky venture at best…
I’m no stranger to life’s disruptions. Life is all the stuff that happens while your planning other things and I’ve always had too many plans. Even during my 9-years in New York City – the longest I’d ever spent in one place – I spent major stints in other locations, including a 6-month sabbatical in Barcelona, Spain and another year doing a fellowship at the University of New Mexico in Albuquerque. I’m not one to let the grass grow under my feet.
But after only a few months in California I realized things weren’t clicking. The job offered none of what I was promised, the weather was making me miserable and I felt for the first time in my life that maybe I’d made a terrible mistake. 10 months later, after trying to convince myself that I was a California girl, of forcing myself to submit to my new life, and after lying to friends and family about how happy I was, the other shoe finally dropped. I realized not that the ground had become too green, not that I’d been hit with another nasty case of the travels, but that I was, quite simply, unhappy. You can only pretend for so long.
I’ve spent the last two months soul searching, crying, rationalizing myself to inner peace and then behaving irrevocable irrationally…only to do all of that again in reverse order. What I’ve come to realize is that sometimes the mistakes you make are what bring you closer to your ultimate goals.
And so on May 31st, 3 days after my 31st birthday and 10 days before my 1 year anniversary in San Francisco, I found myself packing yet again, to reverse-move 3,000 miles back to the “right” coast. This time I’m setting up shop a little deeper south and while I’m not sure how this single, Democrat, tattoo-covered feminist will fair in the low country, I’m pretty sure that this new adventure is the biggest and boldest yet.